Kohlberg
07.10.2021 - 11:56 Uhr
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#gehenstattessen: Mein Gegner – die Angst

Nach einem Sturz und einer Operation ist der Körper wieder geheilt, aber die Angst sitzt im Kopf. Die Angst vor einer erneuten Verletzung, erneuten Schmerzen. Doch die ersten Schritte Richtung Zuversicht sind getan.

Kurze Fotopause auf einer der Holzbrücken, die quer über den Myrabach südwestlich von Wien laufen.

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